patience is a virtue

I am all confused with the idea of not knowing where you stand in a so-called complicated relationship. But then again, some things don’t just happen… oftentimes they are the end-result of that relatively significant moment in the past which is now haunting me - disguised as regret.

While I must admit that I feel for your pain, I apologize for not meeting the expiration date of your patience. But I do thank you… for the time you’ve spent with me, and for the love you’ve given unconditionally.

I thought you understood

All I asked from you was patience

I am torn from the realization whether this is what I want or so I thought I wanted. I can’t really tell. There are a million thoughts, emotions and words left hidden and untold. Now, the wheel of fortune has turned things upside-down, too bad. For who? me?. I can’t say I’m am the only one suffering while the other rejoices. The uneasiness is apparent on both parties if I was the judge of the situation. But then again, can we really conclude from the picture-perfect facade of great pretenders? But then again, there may even be additional facts in the case which cannot be dared revealed? But then again, it’s a moot point is it not?

Yes, I am happy and I submit that in truth and in fact I know I can be happier. I would have been happier. I have deprived and denied my self of the only thing I can be sure of. But did I really?

I played a game and eventually lost. Worst part of it all is that - there is no rematch.

Is all lost while I wallow in pain? But so they say, I am a rock, neither wind nor water can shatter me into pieces, but they can carry me to a better place, and so, now I shall wait for that.

If you know what you want

Come and get it

If after some time you are having second thoughts

Granting that I have let you wait and tag along for so long

Then probably it’s not meant to be

It is fine by me

It might just be for the best for us both

And I won’t be here waiting for long