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depression (part two)
May 12, 2009I was asked out of the blue by my officemate,
How do you overcome depression?
I was taken aback with the question
I thought really hard
I have to have a good answer
Well this is what I finally said
Well you have to have a good outlook on life
Lighten up, smile, smiling always starts the healing
Try not to isolate your self from the world
That tends to invite bad thoughts and more loneliness and feeling of helplessness / hopelessness
Surround your self with good company, family, friends, loved-ones
Keep yourself always busy and preoccupied
Work with you mind and your hands
Engage in new/ old activities that you’d enjoy
Explore possibilities of a greater purpose why things are the way they are
Never lose hope
Have faith
Be strong
You may not have the best plan of action to really overcome your depression
But just try the very least
It’s always worth the risk to bring your self up again after stumbling from a fall
These are the times when I can not just drown my self in sorrow and wallow in pain
My strong and happy facade can really be my very own morphine
how about you?
Depression (part one)
Despite the problems one’s facing, you can be very thankful of loved ones (family and friends) who stuck by you all this time
You try so hard to cheer yourself up while you suffer inside
You join a happy crowd just to keep you sane
Smile a little
Laugh a little
Feel immensely blissful when others are happy
But in a minute or two
The feeling suddenly changes
You convince yourself it’s alright to feel happy
Tagging along a seemingly brilliant smile
Trying to convince others not to really be affected and commiserate with you
You try to hide the pain, tears and frown
Behind the façade opposite the real thing
But it turns out to be too pretentious and false
You can’t really fool anyone/ everyone, especially yourself
Including those who truly knows you inside out
And it pains you even more
The feeling of guilt that you call yourself real but truly some sort of an impersonator
But how can you really be true to yourself
You can’t just walk around town shouting
I am not okay
I am having a hard time
I am facing life-changing problems / trials
I am a coward
I am a failure
I am a liar
I am a bad person
I am not worth to love
Stay away from me if you know what’s best for you
I come with major baggage of grief and sorrow and bad luck
Run now, fast
Why me of all people
How can you teach yourself to love yourself again
Despite your flaws, maintain sanity and be strong and fight
And simultaneously live in a world who never fails to judge you, test you, bring you down and destroy you
Every step you take it seems as if
You don’t have any right to be just sad and miserable for everything that’s happening
Because you have to always be considerate and sensitive of people you love
And ultimately live a life
Can’t help it, you tend to think
If it’s best to be alone
May be then
No one can hurt you
Possibly?
Impossible!
If it’s best to die
May be then
The hurting will stop
Possibly?
But only for you







