Home » Post Item » to lose one’s pride

to lose one’s pride

May 7, 2009

 

The bad news slapped my very being.

 

I convinced my self that I am prepared for the worse but what happened to me. The tears poured down my cheeks with no shame. With the face of my grandfather waiting for me in the other room, I cannot go out broken. How can God not choose another day to let me be free of penetrating glares and questions from the people to whom I cannot hide the truth? Another test of my strength I will have to live up to. I swallowed all pain which numbed my noticeable features to a mask of gleeful me as I exited the room which is the only witness to my vulnerability.

 

As hours and days passed by, I played the great pretender. I cannot anymore control my drastic mood swings and bad thoughts plagued my foolish mind. Then Trina Etong committed suicide. If only I can speak to her somehow, I have plenty of questions to ask her.

 

Another mistake cannot solve a mistake once had.

 

I know I am innocent and I have to fight for the truth, most specially for my dream and my family. But does the truth really count anymore when I have to live with its painful consequences for the rest of my life? I do not want to call my self a coward but neither do I want to be called a failure.

 

The pride of humans.

Posted by hukombitay at 4:43 pm | permalink

Previous Comments

i really can’t figure what’s happening in your life.. but whatever it is.. God is with you. :)

Posted by AC at May 8, 2009, 3:53 pm

ang hirap kasi ilathala ang mga pangyayari… but when i’m ready, kakayanin ko rin siguro isulat lahat. sa buhangin… upang maagusan ng tubig dagat para lamunin ng limot…

Posted by hukombitay at May 10, 2009, 3:31 pm

Add a comment








There is no greater sorrow than to recall, in misery, the time when we were happy.


- Dante (1265-1321), Inferno

About Me

I am my self for the world to hurt... but ultimately Yours for the taking.

- Erica Iris D. Raquel

     

May 2009
M T W T F S S
« Apr   Jun »
 123
45678910
11121314151617
18192021222324
25262728293031

Pens of Hope

Message Board

hukombitay:

yup yup!

AC:

huwawww!!! you’re back! :)

hukombitay:

hi everyone! don’t miss me so much, i’ll be back soon… :)

AC:

hello! how are you??

Nortehanon:

Hi Erica!
Nangungumusta lang.

Miss N:

Magandang hapon, Erica! Heto po, kababalik lang from Northern Samar at muli ay nakakita na naman ako ng masasayang mga bata. Salamat sa tulong.

hukombitay:

hi everybody… miss me? miss you all!

AC:

hello! :)

N:

Hi Erica, dumaan lang uli para mangumusta.

N:

Hi Erica! Dumaan lang para mangumusta.

hukombitay:

@Miss N: here is me saying Hi back.

hukombitay:

AC cute: thanks po sa award

Nortehanon:

Miss N dropped by waving her hands and saying ‘hi’ :) Hope things are going well.

AC:

eto totoong award. hehe
http://awefullworld.com/?p=2255

AC:

eto di award, pero para sayo.. haha!

http://awefullworld.com/?p=2250

hukombitay:

wow, award ulit, thanks!!!

Drama Queen:

para sa yo: http://kapeatsigarilyo.wordpress.com/2009/04/09/isa-pang-chickenjoy/

hukombitay:

thank you duchess! hugs!

melancholicduchess:

http://melancholicduchess.i.ph/blogs/melancholicduchess/2009/04/03/untitled-draft/ hihi! pasesnya sa title/link, di ko magets baket untitled draft.. hay…

hukombitay:

@AC cute: thank you, thank you, thank you to the infinity and beyond!!!! hehehe

Leave a message ▼

Live Traffic Feed

Thank you for dropping by!

    

Subscribe

Technorati
Bloglines

technorati