my response then… but now forgotten

I am very much aware that I alone do not carry all the problems and pain in the world. But I hope it is not much to ask to be supported for all intents and purposes of the word “friend”. If you can’t then just let me be at peace on my own. I am trying to understand my problems as it is, reflect on my past and assess the possibilities  of my future. I don’t want to be selfish or anything so try not to be selfish likewise. I am being considerate the best way I know how. Priorities has finally set in and I have to stick to my master plan. 

I don’t have a heart of stone as you would put it. I don’t have to explain my self my aloufness, indifference and my sudden change of heart. You would have known if you only listened to my words. I need my precious time to worry and attend to far important concerns. I depended on you to bear with my tremendous mood swings as you managed to promise to console and understand my depression. If you are hurting, imagine my pain to which you added up, if you were in my shoes right now, I would bet my life, you would deal this matter worse, as can be gleaned from your level of perception right now. Try not to get blown away by how much you have affected my pain, that is nothing compared to how my future will unfold once a decision has been pronounced and after I have settled all my issues. 

I need not forgive you because you need not apologize.