silence of the joker

Silence in social interaction is the absence of speech. Silence in this arena can be divided into three categories (Bruneau, 1973): mental, social, or both. These are defined according to time, context, and perception.

Physiologically, silence is the result of hesitation, stutters, self-correction, or the deliberate slowing of speech for the purpose of clarification or processing of ideas. These are short silences.

Interactive silence occurs in interactive roles, reactive tokens, or turn-taking.

According to cultural norms, silence can be interpreted as positive or negative. For example, in a Christian Methodist faith organization silence and reflection during the sermons might be appreciated by the congregation, while in a Southern Baptist church, silence might mean disagreement with what is being taught, or perhaps disconnectedness from the congregated community.

 

For someone with lots of words in mind, you choose to be silent. Come on, admit it. 

For your words left unsaid

I wish to see your face now

For your eyes which glows like sunshine

I wish to see your face today

For your secret smiles that reach the heavens

I wish to see your face more

I wish to see your face

everyday

for me to stop wondering

for me to stop imagining

for me to stop hoping

your silence is prolonging my agony

you are my kind of joker 

confessions of the gambler

 

What is that thin line that separates a truth from a lie?

Would you really consider your self to be in love ot just plainly infatuated when the urge to involuntarily care too much for another make you want to shoot yourself point blank? Like how you act does not justify your thoughts, feelings and words and vice versa. Just when I thought figuring out another person is difficult, more so the opposite sex, I came to realize I am far difficult my self to figure out. 

Now, I remember my professor in evidence almost every meeting saying to the class that as lawyers we are always dealing with two sets of truth, i.e., actual truth and legal truth. Actual truth as a matter of fact and legal truth as how law would define and construe it. He continues that this is the reason why innocents rot in jail while criminals are out in the streets. We may say that this reality is unfair but then again this is likewise the reason why people should get the best lawyers. 

But how about those with no knowledge of the law and the rules as well as those with no pending civil/criminal persecution? How do we deal with how contradictory life can be to be able to grasp actual truth?

Does this mean I might just be the one foolishly making things harder for me because I just can’t accept that I am faced with actual truth disguised in the form of legal truth but is really one and the same thing. 

Then I came to think about double standards on differences between men and women and that women tend to be fickle minded. It’s not that we are indecisive (defensive as this may sound), saying one thing and meaning another has always been a way of life for us. While we constantly convince our selves that we are dead frank on a lot of things, on the matter still of some other issues, we tend to act too smart yet actually resolved to be too dumb at the same time if anyone else sums it up and that’s the difficult part to deal with.

But then again it is likewise a phase that all women alike go through and surpasses. As maturity sets in, we are nothing like what we used to be. We can always look back but we are never going back. As statistics confirms this, women indeed mature faster than men. 

But then how would you know you’ve matured. When the thought of that alone makes me shiver with awe and disgust. I don’t want to be just mature, I want to be more than that, someone wise.

You have put me in a box paneled by mirrors all over

I continue to stare at my reflections from all angles

Then I stumbled as the box shook, moved and rolled a number of times

I am diced in my own gamble