happy birthday to me!

June 24, 2008

=)

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dreamboy

June 19, 2008

at the end of the day, everything is a test.

These words have kept haunting my thoughts for quite some time now. I cannot say I’m bothered by this fact but thinking otherwise is neither a pleasing thought either.
Here goes… I met someone.

He is nice, smart, hardworking, good-looking and funny. He never ceases to makes me smile since that first day I met him. The mere thought of him makes my shoulders shiver. I never did consider him to be someone I would admire and who would inspire me. But I guess destiny had better plans for us to be more acquainted with each other.

With the twists of fate making my world a roller-coaster ride, he had taken the control and left me not gasping for air but rather enjoy the ride with a nice warmth of a familiar hug holding me.

Seeing him everyday makes me feel that everything will be alright despite whatever happens. I need not be worried nor sad with all the awful circumstances that has been thrown at my feet. He makes me feel happy inside and out.

But then after quite some time that warm smile and hug vanished from thin air. He now even refuses to look at me with those sparkling eyes. All I get are those cold nods you can get from politicians and strangers who happen to block your path somehow. And I’m more disturbed with the fact that as far as I know I have not done anything wrong. Hard as it was for everyone else, I tried to understand him and give him his space… thinking deep inside that things will soon be back to how it used to be. And I hate my self for somehow blaming my self for not being angry at him for punishing not only me but the rest of us who counts a lot from him.

I am torn with the fact that I owe him and in truth and in fact I have learned to love him. That kind of love I often feel for someone I truly care about wholeheartedly and unconditionally but not really affectionately and romantically or has my senses completely fooled me that I have confused my self intentionally that all these feelings mean only one thing.

The mystery covering his personality has tripled to almost infinity which leaves me with a puzzled look I never would have discovered I can come up with everytime I see him. Then I thought of great wonder of my yester years when things were simple and I was happy, when I wanted to grow up suddenly and that things to change eventually. I wished for things I want rather than what I need. Then the right words flooded my thoughts… that in this life, at the end of the day, everything is a test.

Whatever lies ahead of us remains a mystery which will unfold at the right time. I will have to wait till then and hope far greater things I thought will forever be a dream. He might not be the answer to my prayers but he would forever remain to be someone who had touched my hands and has left me smiling ever since.

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pagbukang liwayway

June 14, 2008

in every dark moment

i don’t cry nor do i speak 

maybe that’s why it’s more painful for me

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mabuti akong tao

hindi ako madamot

hindi ako masama sa kapwa

makasalanan man ako

wala akong sinasagasaan

wala akong inaapakan

makasakit man ako ng damdamin ng iba

nagawa ko na ang lahat para maunang magdusa

hindi ako gumagamit at nagpapagamit

hindi ako nagpapanggap

mabuti nang ako ang masaktan

magsakripisyo

kaysa silang ibang tao

mahal ko man o hindi

sila ang unang iniisip ko at inaalala

mali man o hindi tunay sa mata ng iba 

martir na kung martir

may busilak akong puso

walang sawang nagmamahal

handa laging magsilbi

gumawa ng dapat at tama

kailanman hindi humiling ng anumang kapalit

maabuso man, ayos lang

umiyak man, ayos lang

hindi man maswerte sa buhay, ayos lang

masaklap man ang kapalaran ang danasin

husto na sa awa at payo at pangarap

wala paring pagbabago

umiiyak parin at nag-iisa

hindi man malungkot hindi rin naman masaya

hindi sa nagsisisi

ngunit ako’y tao lang na napapagod

tulad ng panahon na lumilipas

bawat segundo, minuto, oras at araw

ayoko pa man sumuko sa ngayon

hindi rin ibig sabihin hindi pa yon sumagi sa isip ko

makasarili ba akong maituturing para magpasya sa hinaharap

na walang kasiguraduuhan ang pag-asa at pagbabago at kasiyahan

mabuti ka man na tao

sabi nila pagsubok lang lahat ito

pero makatarungan ba na sa hangganan ng buhay ay dun lang din ang hangganan ng paghihirap at pagpatak ng mga luha

ibig sabihin ba laruan lang talaga ang tao at walang sariling kalayaan

maaaring tama… maaaring mali

pero isa lang ang alam kong sigurado

sa buhay na ito mabuti ang may pinanghahawakang paniniwala at pananampalataya

sapagkat yun lamang ang tanging bubuhay sa tao na may pag-asa at may mga pangarap na natutupad

at maaari kang maging masaya at kuntento

masaklap man ang mundo

at marami mang masamang tao dito

at hindi man mangyari lahat ng gustuhin mo

pagsubok, laro o utang man ang buhay mo

ito ay sadyang hiwaga na hindi dapat madaliin

dahil pagdating ng takdang panahon

lahat ng katanungan ay magkakaroon din ng kasagutan

tulad nang isang pananabik

sa pagdating ng bukang liwayway 

 

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There is no greater sorrow than to recall, in misery, the time when we were happy.


- Dante (1265-1321), Inferno

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- Erica Iris D. Raquel

     

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che:

welcome to me here..

Star Villanueva:

Hi, Just blog hopping =)

Nortehanon:

Hi E! Dumaan lang para mangumusta. Hope all is well.

hukombitay:

yup yup!

AC:

huwawww!!! you’re back! :)

hukombitay:

hi everyone! don’t miss me so much, i’ll be back soon… :)

AC:

hello! how are you??

Nortehanon:

Hi Erica!
Nangungumusta lang.

Miss N:

Magandang hapon, Erica! Heto po, kababalik lang from Northern Samar at muli ay nakakita na naman ako ng masasayang mga bata. Salamat sa tulong.

hukombitay:

hi everybody… miss me? miss you all!

AC:

hello! :)

N:

Hi Erica, dumaan lang uli para mangumusta.

N:

Hi Erica! Dumaan lang para mangumusta.

hukombitay:

@Miss N: here is me saying Hi back.

hukombitay:

AC cute: thanks po sa award

Nortehanon:

Miss N dropped by waving her hands and saying ‘hi’ :) Hope things are going well.

AC:

eto totoong award. hehe
http://awefullworld.com/?p=2255

AC:

eto di award, pero para sayo.. haha!

http://awefullworld.com/?p=2250

hukombitay:

wow, award ulit, thanks!!!

Drama Queen:

para sa yo: http://kapeatsigarilyo.wordpress.com/2009/04/09/isa-pang-chickenjoy/

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