mixed emotions

my final exams are yet to be over but i’ve been dreading this very moment i’d get to write again. i missed it so much… with everything that’s happened in my life and the world around me, there’s so much i want to put into words and phrases… in poems and short stories…

amidst the chaos

ever since the zte scandal broke in the open, with on-going senate hearings, lozada kidnapping and testimony and quotable quotes, almost daily conducted nationwide rallies, and the oust gma campaign… the Philippines is seem to be in the brink of collapse… and the worst part of it, people are still suffering…

and while i awaited my fx ride to school, there i saw three (3) vendors lulan ang kani-kanilang paninda sa tig-iisang pedicab, mais, siopao, mani… hindi ko na malala yun paninda. they asked the traffic enforcer how to get to makati. all i can remember was i stared at them for so long i forgot about my class which is about to start in a few minutes. the traffic enforcer directed them the fastest route towards makati. it was only pass 5pm if i remember it correctly and the rally was to start by 8pm i believe. then my eyes followed the three vendors, they had a long way to go, they need a head start. yes, amidst the chaos people are clamoring over the presidency and the talamak corruption under the present administration, but with the rallies these vendors are also earning. the ralliest are his source of income. they are not there to oust the presidency. not that they care less of the situation of the country but it’s a matter of time that if they take more time complaining against the government they would rather work their asses out to be able to provide for their empty stomachs and their families.

poverty…

i await for the time when noone has to stay hungry…

i remember my professor telling me and the rest of the class to do something about reality. exercise our rights, make a stand and fight for justice or for whatever cause… so much for rights, priveleges and justice… it’s always easier said than done… if he only knew what i’m going through to survive this life… i’m not at all complaining… not that i’m complaining… but at least i’m doing something with my life. i am doing my part, making a difference in my own way, touching lives within my grasp and unlike any other filipino doing nothing…

each one of us plays a part in the society…

what does the rest of filipino people have to say?

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i am so happy for a very good brother… because he is in love

mas kinikilig pa nga ako at the rest of school sa love story nya kaysa sa kanya eh… but then as i found him now, only after 1 week of courting the girl… he seems so down. lakas na nga ata ng tama nun girl sa kanya. the thought of his competitors has become more than a threat to him.

all i had to say was… if you are in love.. you need not be afraid… just show it… and prove it…. be not afraid of rejection, because you’ll never have to regret every moment you spend with her because you only let your self love… without condition… without question… with all your heart… all the more reason now that he is sure that he loves the girl and not just another feeling of happiness and infatuation and lust..

love is a splendid feeling… he should rejoice

too easy for me to say…

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it’s my dad’s birthday tomorrow, and he’s turning 51… and i’m excited and a bit disappointed for my self because i have nothing to offer him… hay

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oh how i miss you so

beyond the sky

beyond the stars

beyond humanity

beyond ecstacy

when will i see you again

when will you love me again

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please take a look at me

and tell me what you see

can you through me

beyond the flesh

beyond the smile

beyond the sparkle of my eyes

do you see light

or is it fire

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just a little more time… all it takes is a leap of faith

carpediem