confused and used and in pain

Love is the sweetest thing, I know. It's the greatest feeling. That is, if the one you love loves you back. There can't be anything better than that. But if the situation is wherein you're falling for someone who just considers you as a friend,that's a different story. As much as possible, evade from those heart-wrenching situations. Love is hard to control, but try anyway. Give your best shot at falling out of love. You're lucky if you detect the absurdity and the pain of unrequited love right away, because it spares you from going through a lot of hell. All you have to do is simply occupy yourself with other things. Have fun with your life. You will fall soon, and this time, you will not get hurt, because he will reciprocate the feeling. It will not be now, but it will come in due time. Love is all about sacrifice, giving one's self freely, with no strings attached, you say. Hell, I know that. I know love is supposed to work that way. Love is really supposed to hurt, but that's what makes love love. But this is my stand. And I know you respect that.Love has pained me so much to actually believe that it is better to have not loved at all.

- di ko toh original statement. just copied it sa blog ng one good friend n sis. very inspiring. but i don't believe in the last statement though. Pain is part of loving. One will not truly know what happiness is until he has felt pain. Ultimate irony of life. sobrang daling sabihin pero ang hirap tanggapin sa sarili lalo na kung ikaw nakakaranas nun pain. i've overcome the pain finally but then where do i go from here i still am not sure. i am afraid of finding happiness as the saying goes that it always comes with a prize.

not on love and pain and happiness

i had this experience which i know i have all the right to share but am ashamed of. i was abused with my consent. men are animals by instinct. and i thought you were different. i'm getting disappointed easily lately with the every flaw i see in you pero pinagbibigyan prn kta dhl i love the attention at may pressure sa friend ko at takot ako na bumalik sa past ko if i don't go forward without any company. but then again until now wala tlga spark eh. am i trying too hard? sana magpasukan na para i'd get to be more busy, by then i don't have to accommodate you more. well, i hope that would be the case eventually. i hope everything was just a dream but i cannot decipher the difference from reality, i was dead drunk and for all i know asleep and dreaming.

i'll never look at you the same way

but i said that a number of times before

although to another you

YOU comes in different persons

i should have known better