confused and used and in pain

Love is the sweetest thing, I know. It's the greatest feeling. That is, if the one you love loves you back. There can't be anything better than that. But if the situation is wherein you're falling for someone who just considers you as a friend,that's a different story. As much as possible, evade from those heart-wrenching situations. Love is hard to control, but try anyway. Give your best shot at falling out of love. You're lucky if you detect the absurdity and the pain of unrequited love right away, because it spares you from going through a lot of hell. All you have to do is simply occupy yourself with other things. Have fun with your life. You will fall soon, and this time, you will not get hurt, because he will reciprocate the feeling. It will not be now, but it will come in due time. Love is all about sacrifice, giving one's self freely, with no strings attached, you say. Hell, I know that. I know love is supposed to work that way. Love is really supposed to hurt, but that's what makes love love. But this is my stand. And I know you respect that.Love has pained me so much to actually believe that it is better to have not loved at all.

- di ko toh original statement. just copied it sa blog ng one good friend n sis. very inspiring. but i don't believe in the last statement though. Pain is part of loving. One will not truly know what happiness is until he has felt pain. Ultimate irony of life. sobrang daling sabihin pero ang hirap tanggapin sa sarili lalo na kung ikaw nakakaranas nun pain. i've overcome the pain finally but then where do i go from here i still am not sure. i am afraid of finding happiness as the saying goes that it always comes with a prize.

not on love and pain and happiness

i had this experience which i know i have all the right to share but am ashamed of. i was abused with my consent. men are animals by instinct. and i thought you were different. i'm getting disappointed easily lately with the every flaw i see in you pero pinagbibigyan prn kta dhl i love the attention at may pressure sa friend ko at takot ako na bumalik sa past ko if i don't go forward without any company. but then again until now wala tlga spark eh. am i trying too hard? sana magpasukan na para i'd get to be more busy, by then i don't have to accommodate you more. well, i hope that would be the case eventually. i hope everything was just a dream but i cannot decipher the difference from reality, i was dead drunk and for all i know asleep and dreaming.

i'll never look at you the same way

but i said that a number of times before

although to another you

YOU comes in different persons

i should have known better

daddy’s girl

ok, enough with poetry. dahil inspired ako sa new look ng site ko… super thanks to argyle!!! bow ako sayo. i’ll be writing something worth reading, i hope…

i remember in one episode of the pinoy big brother season 2 celebrity edition… mariel was given a reward by big brother for her accomplished tasks, and the reward (chocolate bar) was to be shared with the guy housemate she considers the sweetest. and after all what donnie/don/donald has done with his brother baron, mariel picked him. then one thought crossed my mind, what makes one sweet and whom do i consider the sweetest guy i know.

i don’t know a lot of men in this world and sweetness can come in a variety of ways and can be interpreted in more than a number of ways. so call me pathetic and loser if i consider my father the sweetest guy i know.

i am a daddy’s girl. i exchange kisses with my father everyday, morning and afternoon, whenever i possibly can. i haven’t felt in any guy i know the same security i feel whenever i’m with my dad. i remember there’s a personality disorder for loving your father too much, it even had the word penis in it, well i think, it was in my psch class back in college. anyhow, i even promised unto my self that the only guy to whom i’ll shed a tear would be the person i’m going to marry and someone who is just like my dad. you may consider me childish, bitter and whatever you want to call it and give me these bullshit statements for keeps, because i’m single that’s why i’m saying all these stuff. ofcourse not. i just want to be sure that i would not disappoint my dad and most specially my self and our future kids.

being sweet is something not that hard to do, but which nonetheless people oftentimes overlook to show. such a pity.

sweetest guy i know other than my dad would be ____________.

nah! my dad remains No.1!